Melanch0lia-ism

new year 09

2009-02-01T10:25:00.002+08:00

cny new year 09 was fabulous with her and my family

we had reunion dinner on eve, visiting on day 1 and 2

both three days i spent time with her as well as family

friday and saturday we had sweet times to ourself

long wkend over cny, this festive is incredibly awesome

outfield ops 2 GrandSlam + Wanderer wk 6

this week is no. 6

we had outfield ops wednesday to saturday

it was another 4 days back to back, work hard and play hard

oh oh this short short wkend oh

1day of bliss and joy as a civilian with my loved ones (:

oh heavenly father Lord, almighty Lord; i pray to you, Lord

please bless me and my loved ones for these tiring times

let us live in abundance, in joy, in bliss as a blessing to others around us

let us spread your words by example

let us expand your kingdom, Lord for you alone are our saviour

i thank you Lord for your graces, let me sing your praises all my life

you are my one and only, most high God

in jesus name amen

outfield ops 1 wk 5

2009-01-25T02:29:00.002+08:00

this week is no.5 we had outfield ops monday to thursday

no bathing

no brushing teeth

no proper sanitation

no decent sleeping area

well it was only 4 days, work hard and play hard

the welcome back dinner at coy line was awesome

we had out rations with qua tiao, nuggets, sponge cakes, deserts, fruits, surup drinks

friday reported my flu from last wkend

bookout 3pm oh

just received my safra card this wkend w my newsweek mag

meet her at novena for dinner and shopping

went citylink for shoes

marina square for soft toys

esplanade for outdoors concert

sent her home

--------------------------saturday-----------------------------

bring her home for awhile

went for very late lunch

took cab to service @ trinity

meet my family at tampines for dinner

sent her home

dear heavenly father Lord, almighty Lord i pray to you

please grant me your wisdom, strength, courage, and hope to continue living as a blessing to people around me

i thank you almighty Lord, let me sing your praises all my life

the most high, one and only God

in jesus name, amen

hardship and sorrow

2009-01-18T14:21:00.004+08:00

this monday outfield camp day 1

ending with a wanderer navigation test

this coming weekend cny! short rest for the longer journey

after cny there is more tedious activities

week 4 going to week 5 on monday

i can only look forward to week 8 graduation

im sick with flu, fever this weekend ):

her and me went far east shopping then ate late lunch at wheelock

made her upset ytd at orchard wheelock

im v sorry and upset

went with her to suntec for reunion dinner

her parents took her to dinner while i go dobly gaunt by myself

waited for iven and daniel to arrive

ate wanton noodles and toastbox breakfast at nite for dinner

daniel came, she called me

iven and daniel went to play lan at parklane

i went to parklane later with her

well i had to sent her home early, took a direct bus to yishun

my 12 midnight movie with iven and daniel, i am a no show

i hope they understand, go out with u awesome guys soon

dear heavenly father lord, i pray to you almighty lord,

please grant me your wisdom strength and encouragement

let me sing your praises all my life

show my peers that you care, your children will prosper and thrive

let me be with my destined partner all my life

in hardship in joy

in happiness and in sorrow

in sickness and in health

let me love her, honor her, be faithful to her and forshake all others as long as i still live

i thank you almighty lord, in jesus name, amen

week 3

2009-01-11T09:53:00.002+08:00

week 3 is tedious and so is week 4; i hope things will ease slightly this coming week --> 4

monday practical test on weapon a

tuesday ippt test should be passed, i believe

outfield on wednesday, thursday and friday oh

for compass course, basic navigation test and navigation 1

friday live firing of weapon a

did first time obstacle course on sispec ground

just a 200m run down and clearing of 11 obstacle w/o timing

did it twice, seems slightly easier compared to bmtc

saturday's games day, overall champion foxtrot; 2nd runner up delta

1 field camp coming up before chinese new year

either on week 4 or 5

should be for practising section movement and firing

i pray o heavenly father Lord, almighty Lord

thank you for everything i am and have belongs to you

let me sing your praises all my life

let me have courage, wisdom, strength and encouragement to live on

to perform my duties, to be a good son, good boyfriend, good person, good friend

let me be blessing to my loved ones and people around me

in your most wonderful name, jesus, amen

new year eve dinner

2008-12-31T20:19:00.001+08:00

new year eve! welcome 2009 with my loved ones~

bookout at noon

thanks amazing buddy yang fong & his girlfriend's car

took a lift to novena where she off work

have lunch with her and qui shan at magic work

well qui shan happens to be nearby

around mid afternoon went home

sleep and recover some energy, i love my home!

celebrate and welcome new year over dinner with family

watched television with sister, pet chiwawa and her

late night dad drove me and her home

i am going learn a licence, my dad needs his rest and i need my independence

week one

2008-12-28T13:03:00.002+08:00

week one in SISPEC

this first week is intro week, lessons and more lessons, one ippt

more to come in the weeks ahead

the place here at pasir leba is much better than bmtc

sunny side up now, preparing for the darker side during outfield

more intensive training would start on week two

time is tight in command school, we play hard and work hard

not much free time for us, always running here and there

8 weeks course is short, just bear with it

oh miss gingerbread sotong u had cause me much worry and heartache

will u please, orite will i please resolve this one mia issue

tough, maybe my hair will stress turn white...

girls.. which man does not worry over his girl

thank you o heavenly father Lord, you are amazing almighty Lord

i pray to you Lord, let us all sing your praises with a incredible awesome year ahead

in jesus name, amen

this week has been a wonderful week

been some time since i went to service at brighton

maybe next month when i get more time, will drop by brighton on sunday

christmas 08

2008-12-25T15:02:00.002+08:00

christmas this year 08

spent with perline at rosewood condo

with lots of boys and girls, we are all there for bbq and christmas countdown

although it was raining the whole day

we had food, drinks, and fun under the drizzle and strong gusts of wind

there are games and more games that involve getting wet

it was a translucence theme and oh goodness, well they had swimwear and extra clothes

at the pool we had 8-9 bikini clad girls and 13-15 boys pushing/carrying them into the pool

afterwards i enjoyed the jacuzzi and sauna with the bikini clad girls

im loving it

we all did, lol

food was awesome in the cold weather

the coldness makes it seems like heavenly gifts to warm ourselves

3 types of beer, 3 types of vodka, 2 type of hard liquor

mix with mixers or served neat

played drinking games till vomit and slightly tipsy

the games were fun, good way to make excuses for drinking with the boys and girls

i did not slept that night, very sleepy, arms and legs very tired

been years since i had drank that amount of alcohol in a single event

thanks perline, this is awesome!!

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i thank you almighty Lord, for your guidance and blessings

let me praise you all my life, Lord

in the wonderful name of jesus, amen

new posting

2008-12-20T17:28:00.003+08:00

posting to sispec at a far far away place

far to the west

beyond jurong

beyond boon lay

beside the discovery centre

in a remote area is my new camp for my course

next phase in my ns life

o heavenly father Lord, i pray to you almighty Lord

please bless me, grant me your wisdom, strength and encouragement

let me be an example to my peers that you, Lord, cares for all your children

let me be whom you want me to be, let me be successful, let me spread your words

let me sing your praise all my life, for you are the most high, one and only God

in jesus name, amen

oh help me

2008-12-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

went city hall

mrt over to plaza singapura

there was one store selling hot dogs with marshmallows

it was awesome, but don't ever upsize

regular was similar to upsize except upsize paid 1.50 more

5.50 for a hot dog and some marshmallows

believe it, try it!

took bus to yishun

sent her home

and

meet her mum on the bus

her mum!!

oh, hi mum

...

i am petrified

o Lord help me, in God i trust

may i find my happiness soon

may i be successful as an example to my peers

that you care, almighty Lord

o jesus, a wonderful name, jesus

in jesus name, amen

praise the Lord!

boring wow

2008-12-16T00:17:00.007+08:00

warlock continue

this is my game, what's your game

world of warcraft

my affliction warlock is amazing

i like it better then my paladin and death knight

more suited for my game play, style and preference

2006-2008 been two years, two expansion sets, many old friends

this game is starting to be slightly boring

living for you

2008-12-15T12:28:00.002+08:00

this is the day, the hour, the time i give it all away to you

i want say i will go your way, living my life for something real

i can't survive, i can't go on if i am without you by my side

i want spend eternity with you

you have turned my world upside down

my life is spinning round you now, all of me, all for you

i will let my light shine for you

nothing is going stop me now, i am living for you

sunday

2008-12-15T00:11:00.003+08:00

sunday family day this weekend

went out with family to pray in the morning

afternoon return home for a nap

it was raining, entire sunday

i miss baby sotong, a day seem years without you

season of christmas, season of giving, of celebration

white christmas

i am going buy baby pooh bear

oh where can i find that bear i had seen

nites

seafood steamboat

2008-12-14T07:35:00.005+08:00

saturday evening church service

han's for a drink and sandwich

took train to eunos

ate seafood steamboat buffet at $32 for 2

affordable dinning

we had lots of seafood, fish and vegs

those shell seafood i ate one mountain on a plate

and lots lots prawns

red bean ice cream

high cholesterol

bought soy bean ice cream

went to tampines

to yishun

to tampines

back home, sleep

baby sotong & baby fishball

2008-12-13T01:46:00.003+08:00

thurs

met her after work, 8.30pm

went novena square for dinner

magic wok serves good and affordable dishes

chinese thai dishes @ four outlets in sg

her, pineapple rice

him, fried rice

baby kai lan vegs

bbq black-pepper pork hotplate

deserts - opps i forgotten

longan soy bean and something orange

sent her home, my home

nites

fri

morning wake at 7am

rolling in bed till 11am

login wow played my undead death knight

no one is to disturb me while i fool around in wow

not even her, alright only her

arh arh my arm pain, is it mosquito? (guess not)

help sister cleanup her computer and reinstall ms office

virus cleanup, temp folder cleanup

install software for her new sony ericsson phone

w910, i guess

now on zero dollar with 2 years plan, that is awesome!

she wants dj max 2 on psp, well later, not now

i got the game, no space in psp memory stick

found it a fuss to chose which game for removal

she wants the removed game back

flicker-minded

uh oh

arh arh my arm pain, is it mosquito? (maybe not)

7.30 at city hall

her shopping

new pairs of heels, a white one, was the last one white too? (guess, it is black)

this week, new heels, new handbag, she is on seasonal shopping

oh christmas, oh discounts, oh my goodness

went marina square for dinner at carl's jr

her, bbq chicken burger with chili beef cheese fries

him, bacon western cheeseburger and ice lemon tea

singapore flyer 30min of sg sky

bought the super imposed photo at $15

spend some time at the garden

well was worth it with her

took bus to bishan

mrt to yishun

taxi to her home

sleep, wash up, sleep

pop 04/08

2008-12-11T08:51:00.004+08:00

pop lor!

on off days, i'm loving it

ytd she was on mc

accompany her to doctor

had breakfast bak qui tei

went shopping and an afternoon movie

took mrt to town

shopping for her

bought a handbag from a ladies shop at plaza singapura level 2?

hopefully she does not read this, i have forgotten the shop name, overnight

is the brand, hmm wondering which brand is it

awww, i will check it out next when she carries it

:)

walked to orchard, far east plaza

her shopping, afterwards

had chicken rice at far east, the chicken rice over there was awesome

13.80 for two person, or a couple

does not come cheap, but it was wholesome and wonderful food

went to see christmas lightings

walked to cineleisure for kbox

kbox now offers buffet at an additional 5 dollars

sing, sang, sing, chinese then end with english songs

11pm exit, 52.50 as usual, kbox, my singing "rocks"

sent her home, and back home

-such a disappointment, gv-

gv @ yishun is understaffed and worse cinema i've seen in months

1. there were only 1 ticket counter open

2. no staff was at level 2 entrance

3. snacks counter only had 1 staff

4. no couple seats

5. small seats / armrest can not be lifted

6. no couple seats!

7. no couple seats!

8. poorly constructed exit route

-1.20am to 3.30am late night gaming season-

created a undead death knight in wow new expansion

it was awesome, new hero class, finally something new

blizz was incredible to make it easy pickup and cool equip from start

everyone should try the new class

her

2008-12-07T13:08:00.004+08:00

she is one person that brighten up my life

with her all things are awesome

she give me courage to tackle problems, challenges, issues

with her i am happy and happy happy happy

went orchard yesterday for rum ball and her shopping

goes to seoul garden ate lots veg and tou fu

i'm loving every moment spent with her

be it happy or sad, joy or suffering, laughter or quarrels

she in incredibly amazing, full of surprises

went cathay to watch a horror movie

took bus home, her home

then my home

gd nites or is it gd morning (?) your guess

week 13

2008-12-07T02:15:00.001+08:00

this monday we had SoC / ippt retest

after the second ippt retest on friday, i managed to passed my ippt

cheers!

daily parade rehearsal with live band in preparation for grand parade

this parade there are 8 coy passing out and the award winners was a long list

50*4*8= 1600 recruits with 3200 guests attending

tuesday oc night there are eclairs, chicken wings, fish burger, prawn crackers and drinks

recruit night at multi purpose hall with music & drama coy was a party with sweets, chocolate bars, cookies and drinks

games day at the sports stadium we had pop corns and drinks, it was a rainy day

this bookout is my 2nd last at tekong, i have been here 12 weeks / 3 months

this time has been incredibly awesome with the amazing people around me

i would like to thank you all and ask for forgiveness in every area of mistakes i made

praise almighty Lord Jesus for your love and grace to your children, i love you Lord!

with you, Lord, all things are possible, you have made me everything i am, everything i achieved, i live for you lord, as an example to my peers that you care, Lord

let me sing your praises, let me thank you all my life Lord, in Jesus name. Amen

week 12

2008-11-29T10:59:00.004+08:00

ippt on friday

thank you almighty lord for restoring me, for answering my prayers

i praise you almighty lord for your graces, for utilising me to show my peers that you care

improvements in all 5 stations

first diagnostic - final ippt

sbj - 198 - 216
chin up - 0 - 3
shutter run - 10.8 - 9.9
sit up - 17 - 38
2.4 - 15.34 - 11.05

failed in chin up by 3 pulls

14/25 points

woah Rtraining on friday afternoon

training for games day was slightly boring

lecture on NE and talks for sign-on is boring

practise marching coy level is indeed very boring

bookout! on ferry (instead of fast craft) at 1900 hrs

next week oc night, recruits night and games day!

looking forward to those events~

from tft dad drove me home, then over to orchard

drop by cineleisure meet her for dinner

walked over to sakae sushi @ wheelock place

christmas lightings this season was wonderful

maybe cause i have seen too much trees, grass and mud in those 2 outfields ops

bought tickets at shaw house for madagascar escape to africa

movie ended a quater of an hour to 0100 hrs

took cab to yishun

stop by seven 11 for a drink

cab back to tampines

bath

ring ring, oh it's my mobile!

...

fallen asleep accidentally

=)

week 11

2008-11-23T14:10:00.003+08:00

finished sit test yesterday late afternoon

start - thurs, fri, sat - end, night bookout!

sunday bookin~

this weekend's a short one

two weeks to the 9th dec!

two weeks for lessons / preparations leading up to~

final ippt, SoC, games day, recruits night, GParade

got the coy M, platoon 3 group photo! it costs 9 bucks

the company shirt would cost another 13 bucks

signed up safra membership + fuse interest club

7.5yrs + 2yrs membership for 216 bucks

$5 carl's jr voucher

$1 anderson's ice cream voucher

one free bowling game at superbowl

weekend, public holidays movies at $8

10% off total bill for $20 and above at seoul garden

10% off carl's jr

10% off all a la carte items at burger king

10% off total bill for ktv party world

plus all of safra membership benefits!

alumni @ TP

they mailed a card to me

free use of TP swimming pool

alumni rates for TP sports facilities and alumni lounge

TPSU dinner and dance

ending this would be awesome meals i had for dinner, breakfast, lunch and dinner b4 bookin

food has seldom taste this good on my platter

thank lord for blessings and unwavering support

lastly warhammer online needs much more inprovement to be the mmorpg it is expected to be

for now, WH40k is like a pvp game without much content

the story is good, the setup is there, but the game is shallow and second rated

world of warcraft wotlk, imma going try in one or two months

should be continue my 70 tier 4/5 blood elf paladin

saturday night

2008-11-16T11:46:00.002+08:00

saturday night in town with shorts, singlets and jacket

my new fav craze

long john silvers new snack/mini meal

-crazy cheesy potato cheese fries-

+ chocolate chips cream pie

quantum of solace 11pm showtime

115min later, 12.55 left the cosy cinema seat

i almost felt asleep during some moments

it was cold in the night

i used my warm jacket to cosy sleep

missed my carl's jr fav meal

been weeks since i had one

ordy ate LJS cheesy cheese

next time i'll eat carl's!

marina's seven 11 for some chocolates, bread and long island tea

incredible bread with butter, orange peel/strawberry spread at 80cents!

packed neatly and ready to consume, i'm luving this quick snack

walked to colley quay

walk and walk, felt much better than road march

back home it's 4.30 ordy

slept on the way back

woosh time flies~

young adults

2008-11-15T10:39:00.004+08:00

previous night loyalle ask me to join the guys for dinner

i was chatting on my phone, sorry

i went back to visit my old workplace at singpost

see the old colleges, they were as awesome as usual

some hairstyle changes and some new staff

jac was on holiday

arica was on MC

jeffery had a visitor

noel went back to ntuc

well i spoke to most of them

last night went to Brighton young adults cell group

i was awe by loyalle car

it's awesome i forgot that i had something on later that night (old guildmates on WH)

i just boarded the sports coupe

zoom to a outpost of Brighton

at katong shopping centre, location: unknown, level: unknown

well i just followed on

surprised by the nice design and layout

they had an cute office, neat meeting room and amazing auditorium

we prayed to O heavenly father Lord

we sing praises to the Almighty Lord for his boundless love and limitless graces

in Jesus name, amen

we had games, cell group, eat dinner, sing prayers, sing praises

we had fun and laughter

time zoom pass and it was 11.30!

two weeks of november

2008-11-13T22:02:00.004+08:00

two weeks of early november

been busy at tekong this two weeks

no time to watch 007 new movie

no chance to get WoW wrath of lich king release

no luck to first see red alert 3 release

not able to attend service last sunday

no phone calls during the last 6days

-i just bought my warhammer online AoR at 56.90, weeks after it's intital release-

goodness, what can i say, just take things easy and lead a simple life

been brushing my teeth over & over since bookout (it's yellow, is it the rations?)

moderate washing my face (it's itchy, is it the camo cream?)

november, november... incredible

first week, in camp training with no bookout that weekend

urban ops lesson 1 & 2, follow by test simulation of my group on misson

fired lots of blank ammo, spent lots time cleaning my rifle

most energy consuming is the jump over window ledge for clearing room

fun and it's awesome activity compared to field camp

SoC lesson 4 and 5 with rifle, vest and helmet

did all stations, next lesson would be rundown and timer

SoC is always fun, the woosh factor is the remaining energy level to do a second run

Ippt

yes, there are some running 60s sprint, 120s jog & 30 min AGRun

as usual morning 5bxs but no other PT that week

improved in ippt +5 situps, +2 pullups, -0.8sec (shutter run), -1.18min (2.4)

my weakest SBJ, still remain the same at 198cm, how i wish it's meters

B.asic C.lose C.ombat T.raining lesson with dummy M16 rifle

the last lesson, we draw dummy rifles for this lesson with two instructors

was quite fun as we try to act fierce and willing to fight more than usual

the instructors will be slightly joking and tekan us one big one

because it's last lesson of BCCT

second week, field camp

day one, march 8000 meters FBO(40kg equipment) to rubber plantation aka forested area

set up bashaar tent, basically two leaking groundsheets and some pegs

dig and dig drainage system

eat combat rations and no washrooms!

training for tactical movement in forested area

day two, more training and more training with the trees, grass and mud

boring, yes

tiring, no

day three, cover and concealment training

then area cleaning + break tents (too obvious to enemy)

transit to camp site 2

day four, dig shell scrape = dig own grave

something like a long, deep pit which can lay inside for concealment & cover

dig, dig, dig, for hours and hours

backache, hand ache, blisters, cuts, headache, thirst, weak limbs, giddy

it's a humble-ing experience

everyone has to dig for their own no matter who they are

the fast help the slow, the strong help the weak

it's living hell BUT we sow the fruits of our labour

at night the sleep was better than usual, we slept in our grave like baby cots

the rifle, helmet was main obstacle b'cus we had to SBO(everything on except fieldpack) on while digging

the equipment slowed our progress, wained our strength, pained our muscles and cause abrasions

basically we had to SBO outfield whenever and whatever we do

even to the makeshift latrine area where we had to dig our own "toilet hole"

even when having meals

but we get to helmets off and L.oad B.earing V.est off when sleeping

incredible we managed to survive the unnecessary burden

and

get used to the burden, it's like a second clothing

we dig and cover up, dig and cover up again and again

b'cus we were slow, or didn't help our friends in need

we learn to be a team, no use being selfish or selfish section

where those that finished had to redo and redo because some has not done 'em

this day is incredible, we survived, we moved the earth, we remoulded the ground

day five, group battle + PT

the morning we did some PT and cover up the shell scrape for the last time

felt sorry for the ground, felt sad to cover my achievement, i miss my cosy pit

group battle course, or "grand battle" was awesome

one of the few days outfield that our rifles get to work

in groups of 3 we go on mission during that rainy afternoon

we had blanks, we had courage, we had fun, we had jokes

leopard crawl in the mud and running in the rain

fire blanks at the "enemy" we had artillery, we did much more!

heavy downpour that night, we had cold, cold night

most didn't change uniform nor powder bath

we slept on the ground with raincoat on; hugging our rifles

day six is bookout day and BIC! we were glad, very relieved

we marched from camp site 2 to BMTC school 1

we marched and marched with FBO till the end of days shall we stop

finally reached Taurus Coy BIC ground

leopard crawl + back crawl all the way under barbed wire and MPMGun fire

it was awesome, we crawl not for our lives but for bookout!

marched back to rocky hill with FBO + extra fieldpack

load up 5 toner and head to Coy line!

clean rifle, wash equipment and pack up, area cleaning, wash up & change for bookout

all in 3 hours! we had to do personal grooming like shaving and camo off

ended up delay, waited and waited; 1 and a half hours at Coy line

off to TFT, bookout orh!

darn there was no shuttle bus to interchange

SBS 19 was packed on peak 6.30 period

no choice we boarded the bus caring our duffel bags

home! first proper wash up in 6 days, seen first decent meal in 6 days

eat like P.I.G. "proper induction growl" stomach growl!

-conclusion-

weird, this field camp it rains daily! just some days heavily, some days light rain

good or not good is hard to say, best to answer : "all the same la"

muddy muddy slippery, just get used to it (at least not so much insects)

outfield we get to sleep early and eat snacks at our own discretion, which is awesome!

games day around the corner in approx 3 weeks

we will win!

my first good night sleep ! i love the city lights

sunday @ brighton

2008-10-27T16:26:00.003+08:00

this sunday at brighton community church was wonderful

this smaller scale service is weekly basis

the smaller size enable closer friendship and people know each other well

everyone in the room knew each another

this is awesome change to the usually "strangers in the same service" atmosphere

my ex colleague and friend Janice Lim intro me there

well been weeks since i last went to church

my previous one was at upper paya lebar road, Trinity

this decision allows me to renew my friendship with God

he who does not waver nor lose faith has watched over me through tough times

naturally i acknowledge his kindness by attending his house every sunday

i thank Lord for being with me all the time, honoring me with his presence

praise the Lord for his unbound kindness and limitless love to his children

after service, we youth/adult went to lucky plaza for ayam penyak

imagine the whole row of seats taken up by us plus half the row on the other side

that is around 12 or 18 people!

i'm not sure of the exact numbers, because the food are so good, i forget to notice the beautiful/handsome faces of my church friends

well loyalle was awesome, i was chatting with him through the meal about ns

janice drive us to candice home which is also janice home

i did't realise they were sisters until i realise their home is the same!

ns does make a man dull and blur or maybe it's the samba chill from lunch

is my brain la, i was dreaming in the cool aircon of janice car

went east coast, later afternoon for cycling

we rented four bicycles and a twin seater

it was for beloved july!

she don't cycle

that's cute

riding a twin seater much more fun

and

the sand castle beach

there have instructors and tools on rent to build sand castles

we ahem, don't have time and knowledge to build one castle

so we borrow one from a previous owner

took photographs and viola! our sand castle!

i would definitely build one of my own someday

with july's help of course, she's wonderful

dinner time!

ate japanese meal at a unique restaurant

it has halloween pumpkins carved into a face on each table

and desert at hong kong cafe!

my favourite french toast at hong kong cafe :)

you are wonderful Loyalle, Zhi Min, Candice, July, Priscilla and Priscilla's sister Estella (pardon me, teach me to spell your name this sunday, yeah?)

and Janice!~ best girl i've ever know (she is strong at heart and gracious)

be strong, girl...life been hard on you, believe in us~ you've your friends here and a wonderful church. God bless us all, in God we trust

janice birth surprise is still with me, well tell me what to do

a swensens treat

jack's place belated birthday bash

wondering if lending her my psp for a month would be great

well my psp is a white elephant, mum will scold if it went away as a gift

but i could lent out for weeks to months

such a predicament

i would think of an idea during camp

yes i would, yes

orite time to get ready for bookin

could smell dinner coming from kitchen

wholesome home cooked food

thanks mum, your's always the best

bmtc week 7

2008-10-25T13:54:00.004+08:00

close combat training on monday

learn how to twist upper body core muscles

to achieve greater power in every jab, punch, elbow and uppercut

target opponent jaw, chin, adam's apple and neck. the weakest points

lower body was knee. grab, hold, knee strike. quick and hard to his lower ribs

wednesday went to standard obstacle course

physical training instructor taught us 6 stations out of the 11

low wall *

parallel bar *

barbed wire jump *

abseiling rope *

horizontal bar *

swinging plank *

those with a * are basic and of no sweat

those with * i have not try because of time constraint

thursday night was my first guard duty

my role: sentry

my responsibility: ensure the security of protected compound

my ability: authority to unitise lethal force when necessary

nothing happen that night

it was a quiet and peaceful night

only the sound of waves could be hear

and

the gushing of strong gusts of sea wind

friday stomach upset

feeling much better, today

thanks almighty Lord for your limitless love showered on your countless children

praise the Lord for his gory and majesty

screw it sat, missed

2008-10-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

sat

screw a girl on sat, missed

darn

at least i did something for my ankle

went to see treatment

felt physically better

mentally worse

a month and a week

2008-10-18T15:29:00.002+08:00

a month and a week into serving my nation

finished PTP phase into BMT phase

the training is tough but worth while

things may seems impossible but is possible with fighting spirit

just do it, nothing is impossible

imagine the possibility

my aim into OCS after BMT

the last week has been to live range

achieved marksmen :)

thats all will post more next weekend

meanwhile attention to my injured swollen ankle

-IPPT-

there are improvements!

i am happy, very happy!

army life + bookout

2008-10-12T03:28:00.003+08:00

army life is simple

wake-up

exercise

eat

lesson 1

eat

lesson 2

eat

lesson 3

routine orders

admin time

lights out

went to imt shooting last week and done my fbo forest road march

next week there is more to come

no worries, not a problem

my swollen ankle, minor issue la

bookout boring when

1. time is short

2. food is expensive

3. friends are busy

well this time has been pretty good

-reserved for more-

imma sleep, tired

-continue-

house bunny is hottie movie with realism and emotions

a comedy

a good movie

for guys and some awesome girls

hahahs

do i miss restaurants? nope

do i miss home? nope

do i miss games? nope

do i miss movies? nope

do i miss clubbing? nope

do i miss girls? nope

do i miss liquor? nope

do i miss poly life? nope

do i miss fun and party? YES, yes & yes!

island of training

2008-10-01T11:44:00.002+08:00

off i go to my island of training with various platoon kakais!

i wouldn't say private island but restricted island, cool yah!

finally past my confinement period of 16days, 3 weekends...

well i get to eat well, sleep well and train well with no distractions

it is demanding and challenging but for my own good

i'm confident to be hunk material by POP

2 weeks already make me feel much confidence with nice tan and visible muscles

it was awesome, bunk kakais and Commanders, thank you!

AND

thank Lord for his aid, praise the Lord for all his gory and love for his children

thank all my friends, ex schoolmates and colleagues for their support and encouragement

you are the best!

all of you! yes, you! no no don't look sideways, it's you!

cheers

ms a-dor-able c-hat-ter

2008-09-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

janice is bored at work! takeover takeover my workload la, haha

talktime is chargable at 3 cents per seconds, imma get free talktime lol

our flyer boy will be leaving for brother's Island this friday. im management suppt. officer not flyer boy orh!~

tomorrow will be his last day in SII. certainly not the last of me

plusNo more b'fast delivery after tomorrow. you will be in my thoughts, oooh breakfast!

hope you enjoy your free resort, free training, etc...i will complain to you when i don't like it

read the original text at:
http://myhabitsyourattitudes.blogspot.com/2008/09/stomper.html

diners card

2008-09-10T17:47:00.002+08:00

diners rewards card, earn 10 reward points for every $1 spent.

purchase of diners rewards card, will recieve:

$10 Lunch Voucher

$15 Dinner Voucher

1-for-1 Main Course Seafood Harvest Dinner Voucher

$10 Cake Hotline / Online Voucher

Immediate discount and reward points!

dinner at jack's place

2008-09-10T09:07:00.005+08:00

dinner at jack's

two songs

and

a third

birthday surprise for Her

went east coast beach see waves and scared ourself

me

she brave

haha

winks

skil

2008-09-09T15:27:00.001+08:00

tuesday

2008-09-09T15:13:00.002+08:00

monotonous Tuesday

eat too much fried food

fried food is bad, is just bad

bad

for me

no to fried food

and

carbonated drinks

song! music and life!

2008-09-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

added song! music and life! tonight

simple, sweet, delicious music streaming

imma luving it

special thanks to imeem.com

govt holiday resort

2008-09-08T17:35:00.002+08:00

going in holiday resort this friday

free yatch to my tiny offshore island

free clothes and fooda!

free nanny and fitness instructor

free scoldings and little dumb things

damn funny, it's funny

would always be the guy say

very funny is it? drop 10

must stop giggling like a girl

cause i anit a girl, i would laugh

and drop 10

hahahs

passed

2008-09-08T17:32:00.002+08:00

wooh Gingerbread passed her final insurance exam!

i'm glad and happy

phew

could stop praying and heart stop jumping around now

yeah, no one dares fail my queen

else

i die

not you die, please

hahahs

reserved

2008-09-07T14:11:00.002+08:00

reserved parking slot

parked

a

brand MINI Cooper

red

sexy

070908

arise my champion

2008-09-04T22:22:00.002+08:00

i feel as well as before,

thanks dear O Heavenly Father Lord for whom you have blessed me the humble servant with your almighty strength, wisdom, courage and power;

praise the Lord, for all his gory and might; let all living praise the Lord! Amen.

well i could fought a thousand on monday, i could fought a 100 times more over again today!

God Bless!

sad

2008-09-03T17:18:00.001+08:00

Down with food poisoning, Doc give 3 days MC :(

remote control car

2008-08-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

bought a remote control car

can run, good childhood memories

time flies

In God We Trust

my life is sad

2008-08-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

this is my life, i have to face it; no matter what happens

i pray, God have mercy! i your humble servant asks for strength to overcome whatever obstacles present in my life

God Bless!

la la la

2008-08-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

la la la

this area is for my 5th august activites

morning mrt spoilt 8am-8.20am

went work and went visit collegue mum then went home for dinner

goody two shoes boy

la la la

-psp-

2008-08-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

final fantasy crisis core $59.90 after discount from $65.90

off road racing $0 free

mech modified air combat $0 free

psp new games

interesting

for a little while

one week, two week, at most one month

woo la la

2008-07-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

you will never knows when heavens pour

you will never guess their next move

destiny is in our hands

luck is in their hands

together we will succeed to a certain extend

read books

read the bible

-

honor the gods

love your woman

defend your country

-

-she-

2008-07-26T00:44:00.002+08:00

she left me

she is gone

i am finished

my task is done

time to pass on

to heavens

and beyond

woo la la

2008-07-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

the time has come to say

i have a new younger sister!

she is my ex girlfriend

woo la la

i am dead meat

woman and money are my weakness

which men don't chase after woman and money all their lives

God bless~

mousepad

2008-07-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

new mousepad for my copperhead!

seen a promotion at challenger buy 2 get 1 free

bought 3 games at 19.90 each

heros of might and magic V

brothers in arms: earned in blood

ghost recon: advanced warfighter

time to get busy hahahs~

sim city 3k

2008-07-06T22:44:00.003+08:00

woo la la new dvd combo drive!

seen AoC requirements specification, can't run on current pc

duh

i play lara croft: legend on dvd instead

bought it months ago at popular but did't have time to play

looking for new mmorpg to play, has been 5 months since stopped WoW

this weekend tried everquest 2, rather alright but not worth a subscription

lastly on sunday

tossed out an old pc game sim city 3k to play, bored with tv and korea drama

Gawey for AoC

2008-07-01T16:47:00.003+08:00

gawey arse AoC

Age of Conan

Oh my goodness i need a dvd drive

2004 to 2008, my computer 4 years old

Username for AoC: Gawey

Class: Ranger

Server: Deathwhisper

she, me and her

2008-06-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

i am be a ladies man, and a guys buddy as well

goals in life

5 years plan

i have to be successful, for myself, for her, for she and him

i am no silver spoon, my fate falls on myself and her

and she and him

guess who is her, she and him

wrong

wrong

guess again

wrong!

me, myself and her

2008-06-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

preparing myself mentally for enlistment

she is helping me

distancing herself from me

i should get used to it

sooner or later i would be defending my country

physically i had lazily join my supportive mum and sister to jogging sessions occasional weekend

meanwhile working life is enriching, took time off my schedule

i would be the best when i work, at a place i like

location, environment and benefits play a huge part

pay is around the same range as most other vocations

fallin sick

2008-06-19T21:02:00.004+08:00

fallin sick recently

high stress work and change in lifestyle

suffering from constipation~ hush shhhhhhhhh

my sassy girl next door Gingerbread left me to die by myself

on the two months leading up to my enlistment date

left with only my family support and friends help

i fought with my own destiny, i want to improve further to reach my goals

after national service i wld look for 3 variables in a permanent job

pay, environment, benefits

high reasonable pay with fixed and variable bonuses

prestigious, high end facilities, generous pantry/stationary/printing materials and friendly colleagues, etc long list

benefits such as company transport, company claim expenses, company credit card, company accommodation, travel allowances, company phone, company laptop, etc long list

after national service and a few years in the workforce i wld look for 99 variables in a spouse/relationship

behaviour, belief, beauty, compatibility, consciouses, feeling, fate, family background, figure, hight, weight, vocal speech, vocal tone, principles, respect, etc long list

PS: find a regional posting with a international job scope instead of stuck in singapore, able to fly frequently and has multiple workstation/office in various districts, regions and countries.

her, she's back

2008-06-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

her, she is back in s'pore

i felt both glad and sad at the monent of her call

i wish for a vacation before enlistment

to a island with scooters to ride around

woo la la

realise i'm living

2008-06-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday

saturday & sunday

day by day, week by week

a month pass, a year pass

i have grown up

my loved ones had grew older

realise i am living

far yet so near

2008-06-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

you are far away yet i feel you close by me side

i miss you yet im glad to appreciate finer things in life

if we are ment to be we will be, yet we must put in effort

god cannot help us if we did't receive his aid in proper manner

we will appreciate finer things in future i belief

sitting by a romantic seaside, park or at a art gallary

i enjoy simply things in life, i am a simple man

i miss her

2008-06-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

may God bless me on and on forever in my lifetime

i miss her

she is going fly on 7th

i put my trust in you

i am going so miss you, my love

20th birthday celebration

2008-06-01T09:20:00.003+08:00

20th birthday celebration on Sunday June 01, 2008 with gingerbread!

i had a special surprise dinner at hai tien lo in pan pac 34th floor above the ground

could see the whole central business district of singapore

including espanade, supreme court, funan mall, singapore river, bugis, national library and more

a lovely chocolate cake full of choc, cream and blueberry for me

this is awesome, i love her, thank god for his blessings

right side of body pain

2008-05-28T00:04:00.003+08:00

pain pain

pain pain on right side of body around ribcage

shoulder pain and lower back pain when lifting boxes

8 to 11kg boxes would trigger pain spikes

pain pain

pain

1,2,3

2008-05-27T01:36:00.005+08:00

my other fav, Mc furry and all those Mc ice cream!

AND

watched this evening,

"Indiana Jones and The Kingdom of the Crystal Skull"

triple stars out of three hundred stars, hahahs

chocolates

2008-05-26T00:38:00.003+08:00

my new fav = chocolates

belgium chocolates

milk chocolates

butter cocoa chocolates

AND

Mc hotcakes breakfast with tea + lots of Mc butter and corn syrup

growing up

2008-05-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

do i

should i

will i

can i

question mark

growing up is complicated

my sunshine

2008-05-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

my sunshine and me has been over a rift recently

my sunshine, gingerbead, strawberry shortcake and darling

i should respect her, she is a lady

im sorry for my brat behaviour, spoilt kid attitude

la la la la la~ la la la la la~ la la la la la la la la la~

i love her

Zoo

2008-05-17T21:55:00.003+08:00

went to zoo today afternoon

tampines, jurong east, chua chu kang, jurong east, tampines

miss out 4e4 bbq this evening, was so sorry!

---

yesterday went town to skateline

went to marina square, carl's jr for dinner

back to tampines for movie Drillbit Taylor

comedy hahahs

---

yuki yuki

2008-05-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

monday went for yuki yuki buffet dinner!

i like the sweet chill dory fish & sliced 3 layers pork

she like steamboat esp. hotdogs & mushrooms

fry ice cream~ choc + coffee

green tea
yum
grape

PS: sunday went library

her: study long long time

him: read novel long long time

Halooowww

2008-05-06T01:47:00.004+08:00

halooowww

many times i feel shouting out my worries, problems and many issues in my life.

halooowww halooowww

god bless, i love u all

Skating at ECP

2008-05-05T00:28:00.002+08:00

sunday evening went skating at east coast park

was fun and good exercise

sweat aplenty, wet like i was swimming

feet was sore and painful

hurt my hands and knee

i was enjoying it!

PS: wear thicker socks, gloves and good skates(must be good ones! Long frame, brake pads, hard shoe)

Labour Day

2008-05-02T02:16:00.003+08:00

labour day!

i was surprised and glad to have a well deserved break mid week from my first week working

yesterday went shopping for his shoes, her dress & belt and dinner at bugis then to yishun until 1.30am has to ask dad fetch home, thanks dad!

this morning was busy with graduate issue then afternoon meet with lovely hainan cds folks for kbox; u rocks cds! *(kbox whiskey coke was quite strong.)

went to meet gf at evening for dinner, study and more! i love bus 969, speedy north-east express route

work work work

2008-04-29T01:31:00.002+08:00

finally working, first day at work!

at ALPs road UPS~ Luckily the provided company transport!

was quite fine, except i forgot to bring a waterbottle along and some papers and pen

i have forgotten to bring back my payroll, appointment letter and code of conduct papers with my newspaper too back in the office!

darn forgetful, busy, lazy, forgetful hahahs

Life carry on

2008-04-24T14:19:00.002+08:00

Back Home, Life carry on... get a job and work

Later this year going enlist into National Service...

Twenty this year 2008, after NS should be further education or going work

Twenty two at 2010, crossroads after NS; further education or work?

Ginger, i am going wait for u till 2018, 10 years from 2008

Back to Singapore!

2008-04-24T00:22:00.002+08:00

I got back to Singapore Last Last Sunday!

Home's the Best Place!

Trip Report

Presentation

Going to start work this monday at UPS

:)

fly fly

2008-04-05T21:57:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow early morning flying off to HaiNan

Hopefully Mr. Lim don't mind our late project proposal

N

My stochmach hopefully would be well through the duration of our trip

:)

Room under Renovation

2008-04-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

my new room is under renovation starting 1st April

would be ready by the time i return to s'pore

yay could move and arrange my furniture and items when i am back!

there is good and bad to everything, there is balance in the universe

pros n cons of my new location...same home, different room

thinking hmmm i got to cut my finger nails!

/\/\/```

2008-03-30T01:20:00.002+08:00

saturday afternoon went to beach road shops

they sell zip lock bags, gloves, torches and many useful items

had lunch at subway $9 for a subway melt w bacon n extra honey mustard

N

Barley drink plus $2.50

went to suntec carefour for some bottled drinks

the express lane was far longer than the normal lanes, unwise to stay there

went to play pool at pool fusion

they had awesome music and equipment but e rates maybe on e higher end

evening came back to tampines for the pasa lama food

Fish Balls & Fried Tapoical

had steamboat for dinner with my family

watch tv at night. .Feel like ending my life right now

1.33am wee hours in the night, darkness caught me

i need a cure, i have to find another cure soon

i cannot be of status single, has to be attached

troubles of a young man tsk tsk

east coast park

2008-03-26T17:45:00.003+08:00

yesterday afternoon went to east coast park!

had not been there since very young with my family, almost 15 YEARS ago!

marine parade or parkway parade. . i am new blurhead there. .

well we had lunch at food court both ate noodles,

she, curry chicken noodles -no so healthy-

me, fishball noodles -healthier-

N

mango + some fruit drink LoL

it was 2pm - 2.30 sun was high up in the sky, i decide to swim in the sea

after swimming, suntan (actually wading in the shallow shore!)

played with the sand and sea akin to kids' behaviour

BATH

the bathhouse were not as glam as sentosa's, it is usable n barely any frills

imagine tourist using the bathhouse there and what an imagine of sg portrayed!

sit near the coast enjoying the breeze

R.ent B.ikes

close to 4pm went to rent bikes n for the free drinks

$12 for 2 with drinks n 2 hr period

cycling hmmm... cycling.. we stop at various shelters to rest n drink up

nice view of the sea and breeze so cooling! ahem ahem =)

we cycle a long way n long time must had been;4-6 overshot 7.30 return bike hahah

WAIT

inbetween we went to eat bbq wan ton mee, mutton satay, sugar cane drink n barley drink at a wonderful "food centre" located somewhere there. face the sea go <---

STILL hungry

we shared mac meal for a makeshift dinner

met my uncle by coincidence, he was waiting for some client to buy some food

nuggets n fries with sweet chilli and mayaonise munch! munch!

ICE LEMON TEA

sent her home, had fruit juice while waiting for the bus

bus journey being pinched n pinched until reach destination

-have a nice chat-

-ginger riding tired skinny horse-

her home, good nites

11.40 i rushed over to bus stop, stop by 7 11 to buy green tea

took 33 to mrt station catch 12.15 last train to tampines

N

12.35 last bus 291 back home

me home, sleep!

this morning wake up alittle darker, much more tired and much more happier person

PS:ytd was happiest!

dbl o

2008-03-21T15:17:00.002+08:00

thurs nite at dbl o

the place was v packed! =has long ques to enter=

drinks are reasonable priced for locals, ahem cheap! =in sg context=

the music was nice, recognizable old school n some not so new but recent yrs songs

MoS n Zou k -> u rock with better facilities but u suk with service attitide n prices

My rating =Facilities= =Songs= =Service staff= =Prices=

"MoS" 9/10, 5/10, 2/10, 4/10

"Zou k" 8/10, 8/10, 6/10, 5/10

"dbl o" 7/10, 7/10, 7/10, 9/10

PS: the rest of outlets i did't go in months, no memory = no comments

Wed work at MoS

2008-03-20T19:42:00.002+08:00

I started my first time working at nightlife outlets MoS with my friend whom pursuaded me to join him at the job, it was horrible; totally different from clubbing n drinking.

Have to Stand Straight, no hands in pocket or leaning against wall.

Has to allocate to respective area, no freedom of movement.

There is no seats, has to stand through the night with some 10min breaks.

No drinks yet has to greet n thank patrons, soon sore throat.

Anyway people working there are mostly from overseas, such as Philippines, Indonesia and some Malaysian. They have contracts to work 2yrs n has some debt to pay off. Singaporeans are the few supervisors, managers, and security guards.

Imagine clubbing without drinks, people, freedom. . only can stand like statue and serve people. They don't allow staff to chat with staff nor staff to chat with patrons.

Well last time about 1 yr ago there are not so much staff posted around as i went clubbing, nowadays seems like conpetition is fiercer n those poor staff has to suffer more.

PSP-2newGames

2008-03-16T01:21:00.002+08:00

I had God of war on my PSP and Monster hunter freedom 2 USA version

Wonderful day, need a larger memory stick!! 4gb was like tiny...

Asian Civilization Museum

2008-03-12T22:22:00.002+08:00

Visit to Asian Civilization Museum!

Seen many culture and countries in Asia, East Asia, their religion such as Buddism and Hinduism.

They have many interesting and meaningful exhabition.

Later this month going to Nepal to do community service for the a school there and also to do a project research on our group chosen topic.

TP has 100 used desktops for the Nepal schools!

We have to teach them how to use the desktops... have to setup the desktops too... =/

Boy and Girl

2008-03-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

Relationships being much joy and sorrow, bitter sweet taste, laugh and cry at the same time.

Mars and Venus, worlds apart, so far yet so near...

Boy love Girl = short term romance, hot and spicy, end up in flames!

Girl love Boy = long term romance, stable and sustainable, end up being dumped!

Boy love Girl and Girl love Boy = Happily ever after, marriage!

PS: marriage is not the end, continue to show passion, pamper and love each other...

1st March 08

2008-03-01T13:51:00.002+08:00

1st March already, been so fast since CNY.

Ended up Heartbroken, Sad, Poorer and much more. . .

Due to Disobedient loved ones.

housepours

2008-02-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

7 housepours

Vodka, gin, bourbon, whisky, brandy, tequila, rum are housepours

3 notebook
3 pen
3 lighter

:)

Singapore Airshow 2008

2008-02-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

I went to the Singapore Airshow 2008 early afternoon at 12.15pm

Was in the taxi until 12.35pm looking for the correct entrance.

Then has to register with our business invitation at the counters and security screenings.

Me and simon went in while the air display was ongoing.

After a little over an hour, at 1.45pm the air display ended with the airbus A380 flyover.

Both of us went to look at the planes on display at about 2pm.

Starting with millitary planes from US air force to the RSAF S'pore air force planes.

The part i enjoyed most was the civil planes and private jets.

We are allowed to enter the interior of civil planes and take photos with the crew.

Personally i like the sofa and meals tables, individual seats with LCD TV and audio.

Some has better headroom than the others, with larger planes being much more comfortable.

There are also smaller planes on display for short flights that seats from 2 to 5 passengers.

Finally we decided to to skip the helicopters and went into the exhibition hall.

ST Technologies was the most interesting inside, with guns on display & Try out counters.

The rest was mostly business and military related stuff.

Leaving the Airshow at 3.45pm we took a $5 coach to swisshotel at city hall.

Have lunch at Subway, Cheese Steak with bacon and honey mustard. Barley drink!

Sat at Starbucks @ city hall to rest and chill for awhile.

After lunch we went to Vivo city at harbour front reaching about 5.30pm.

Took a short walk alround and went to japanese store Daiso for a Drink.

Went to Koven Mc for twister fries and red bean pie with milo before heading home.

Reached home at 8.30pm and had dinner while watching tv drama on channel 8, 9pm.

:)

Command & Conquer Red Alert 3

2008-02-16T13:23:00.002+08:00

Command & Conquer Red Alert 3 has been announced!

Beta tests soon and expect it to be out this year!

This is after a 7 year wait for the original C&C Red Alert fans

End of SiP

2008-02-12T10:17:00.000+08:00

Yeah SiP ended at the start of a new year!

Cheers cheers~ Hopefully my pay come in soon

Happy Year of the Rat

2008-02-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese new Year!

2008 Rat year!

Starship Troopers: Marauder

2008-02-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

The third installment of the popular Starship Troopers franchise.

Starship Troopers: Marauder

Release date is TBA - To Be Announced

And

Another awesome comedy is out in theater soon

Meet the Spartan

Release date is Early 2008

-9 days to CNY-

2008-01-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

There is 9 days to go CNY!

Last week 3 Singapore Poly interns left our attachment place, we are left with 4 Temasek Poly guys. 9 days to the end of our attachment. Goodbye soon~

I hate this world, humans and myself included.

CNY around the corner!

2008-01-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

16 more days to CNY 08! Cheers!

Dim Dim

2008-01-19T13:13:00.001+08:00

Dim Dim web meeting program

hahah - from noodle.. wonder why dim dim

Time of the year to buy new clothes

2008-01-12T14:38:00.001+08:00

well. .

it is the time of the year to buy new clothes, again! what a bother

probably now is the best time to start shopping before the CNY crowd appears

waiting on my friends free days n new year designs to appear at shops(who want last year's)

shall i make a list. . long sleeve shirt, t- shirt as usual, pants? maybe(i just bought one a month ago)

Shop to visits, topman, G2000, Hangten, metro/shopping mall(if im feeling poor) and levis(if im feeling rich)

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2008-01-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

I want to be a workaholic,
because my lousy life has no other purpose,
rather then rotting away,
i can do good to the society by working and donating monies to charity.

lost my sense of "positive feel"

2008-01-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

I should learn how to smile and enjoy my life. . where did my positive sense of feelings went to?

I am slowly losing my negative senses. No Feel , No Life Guy.

Wave - Come on

2007-12-30T16:51:00.000+08:00

I hope it is more of ups then downs ↑ ↓↑ ↑ ↑ ↓↑

Wave-form

2007-12-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

Life is like a wave-form. . ups and downs ↑ ↓

Me want to learn driving

2007-11-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

I want to learn driving after SiP =D

SiP

2007-11-20T21:16:00.001+08:00

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Well it has been a month since last post. . i am out of my cave. . sort of out of my cave. xD

I have been working on SiP for the 5th week!

Work does take things out of my mind, been busy and it avoid me thinking too much

Frequently i still prefer to be left alone. . for awhile at the least

I don't like working at T3 open house. . or rather for the 1st week

This week is the 2nd week with better lunch and less people visiting. . light at end of tunnel?

Can't be happy too quickly. . t3 duty has taken up half of my work schedule

Manager is looking for delivery / results . . has to speed up on my tasks N improve on quality

Quality control is almost as important as quantity - speed

Has to focus on culture and language programme, trainees culture interviews, E-lecture sync and competitor analysis benchmarking (lucky me, he had't chase for this item yet)

Culture and language programme require arrangement with trainees to conduct an audio interview, fill in the question form, create a powerpoint presentation for each individual and sync it with MS producer to create a culture and language presentation on e-Learning portal.

Has to do quite alot(16) of these culture and language presentation for the e-Learning portal.

competitor analysis benchmarking require much research and data gathering for the excel chart data value inputs.

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Caesar cipher

2007-10-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

In cryptography, a Caesar cipher, also known as a Caesar's cipher, the shift cipher, Caesar's code or Caesar shift, is one of the simplest and most widely known encryption techniques.

It is a type of substitution cipher in which each letter in the plaintext is replaced by a letter some fixed number of positions down the alphabet. For example, with a shift of 3, A would be replaced by D, B would become E, and so on. The method is named after Julius Caesar, who used it to communicate with his generals.

The encryption step performed by a Caesar cipher is often incorporated as part of more complex schemes, such as the Vigenère cipher, and still has modern application in the ROT13 system. As with all single alphabet substitution ciphers, the Caesar cipher is easily broken and in practice offers essentially no communication security.

To encipher a message, simply look up each letter of the message in the "plain" line and write down the corresponding letter in the "cipher" line. To decipher, do the reverse.

Plaintext: "the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog"

Ciphertext: "WKH TXLFN EURZQ IRA MXPSV RYHU WKH ODCB GRJ"

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Halo 3, Ninja Gaiden 2

2007-10-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

New interesting titles on Xbox 360

Halo 3, Ninja Gaiden 2... maybe PGR 4, DOA 4 / Xtreme 2

Darn can't be played on the xbox!!

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Xbox360 is released June 30 2007

Usually change every four years...

new gen at June 30 2011

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I guess would i'm likely buy Xbox360 late 2008 - hey but i am in the army by then!!

I need Help, But i am afraid

2007-09-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

Part A

According to the DSM-IV-TR criteria for diagnosing a major depressive disorder (cautionary statement) one of the following two elements must be present for a period of at least two weeks:

1. Depressed mood, or
2. Anhedonia

Yes to Depressed mood. Unsure what Anhedonia means.

Part B

It is sufficient to have either of these symptoms in conjunction with five of a list of other symptoms over a two-week period.

These include:

1. Feelings of overwhelming sadness and/or fear, or the seeming inability to feel emotion (emptiness). Yes

2. A decrease in the amount of interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, daily activities. Yes

3. Changing appetite and marked weight gain or loss. No

4. Disturbed sleep patterns, such as insomnia, loss of sleep, or excessive sleep (hypersomnia). Yes

5. Psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly every day. Yes

6. Fatigue, mental or physical, also loss of energy. No

7. Intense feelings of guilt, nervousness, helplessness, hopelessness, worthlessness, isolation/loneliness and/or anxiety. Yes

8. Trouble concentrating, keeping focus or making decisions or a generalized slowing and obtunding of cognition, including memory. Yes.

9. Recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), desire to just "lie down and die" or "stop breathing", recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for completing suicide. Yes

10. Feeling and/or fear of being abandoned by those close to one. Yes

Part C

The Patient Health Questionnaire is a faster, two question questionnaire.

"During the past month, have you often been bothered by:"

1. "little interest or pleasure in doing things?" Yes
2. "feeling down, depressed, or hopeless?" Yes

If either question is positive, then the SALSA questionnaire should be used for more certainty.

A positive test is one of the above answers positive and two of the answers below positive:

1. "Sleep disturbance nearly every day for the last 2 weeks?" Yes

2. "Have you experienced little interest or pleasure in doing things nearly every day for the last 2 weeks (Anhedonia)?" Yes

3. "Have you experienced Low Self esteem nearly every day for the last 2 weeks?" Yes

4. "Have you experienced decreased Appetite nearly every day for the last 2 weeks?" No

--Checklist diagnosed for depression-- Positive.

Personal

I have some symptoms which i felt not listed or taken under account of previously.

1. Self-loathing.

2. A decrease in self-esteem.

3. Sensitivity to noise.

4. Fear of 'going mad'.

5. Change in perception of time.

6. Possible behavioral changes, such as aggression and/or irritability.

7. A feeling that something bad is going to happen soon.

8. Avoiding social situations or being late often.

9. Feeling that you will never get better (hopelessness)

I believe as a child i had

a. Loss of appetite. (Until late primary school, primary 5)

b. Irritability. I am still suffering from it.

c. Sleep problems, such as recurrent nightmares. I am still suffering from it.

d. Learning or memory problems where none existed before.

I had poor memory and poor grades for post primary, primary and tertiary education.
Secondary education had a slight improvement due to my urge to rid myself of the bad company and sufferings at normal academic level to reach express level.

e. Significant behavioral changes; such as withdrawal, social isolation, and aggression.

I am a social withdraw person with few friends and rarely talk even with my family members.

Since tertiary education failed friendships at year one, i had been in social isolation for my time spend in year two and my current final year. I stay at home for extended periods of time and avoided going out for social acivites.

I may have depressive disorder which i am afraid to admit and seek treatment.

I want to show to my family that i can do as well as my cousins and childhood friend in life.

I want others to respect me and not treat me as a retarded patient.

I want to stop medication or visits to the IOH Insititute of health which i been to while i am in primary school years.

I am afraid to seek treatment

My Symptoms of Clinical Dependency

2007-09-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

I always feel there is something amiss with myself, i seek to find an answer for myself, sometimes i think i had some symptoms of clinical dependency.

I have Low self-esteem, frequent anxiety and verbal hostility towards others, even my close friends and relatives. I often stay at home for extended period of time because i fear the outside world and fear of crowds.

My poor social performance and rigid interpersonal behavior had lead to few friends, i had one good friend in primary school. It is the only friend i have in those five years, at primary five we quarrel and went out own ways.

My last year at primary school was lonely, i spend time walking around school, going to the school library and trying to act like i was busy to my family members. I sepend lots of time reading comics at the school ibrary.

I feel like i am a ghost of my past, drifting around without aim or target, my childhood friend and cousins had progress much better then me in both academic and personal lifestyle.

I had poor grades since i start schooling, poor in sports, few friends and fewer close friends, no girlfriends or close female friends, poor in communication and self presentation.

I should be suffering from this dependency.

Psychological dependency is a dependency of the mind, and leads to psychological withdrawal symptoms (such as cravings, irritability, insomnia, depression, anorexia).

Addiction can in theory be derived from any rewarding behavior, and is believed to be strongly associated with the dopaminergic system of the brain's reward system.

Some claim that it is a habitual means to avoid undesired activity, but typically it is only so to a clinical level in individuals who have emotional, social, or psychological dysfunctions ( psychological addiction is defined as such), replacing normal positive stimuli not otherwise attained.

It is considered possible to be both psychologically and physically dependent at the same time. Some doctors make little distinction between the two types of addiction. However, the cause and characteristics of each of the two types of addiction is quite different, as is the type of treatment preferred.

Psychological dependence could be from activities and behavioral patterns that can be considered addictions, if they are harmful, for me it would likely be Internet use, usage of computers.